love sucks!!

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2010-01-18T23:13:00.001-08:00

i just feel like ending all tis rs..
really.. i do ..
bcoz tis pain..
is hurting me so much..
till every nite i cant slip..
every nite i dream of you..
yeah..
dream of you leaving me..
not once..
its countless time already..
and all of it is the same ending..
u leave me..
im so confused..
why am i having tis dream??
maybe i think too much of the memories of u leaving me..
maybe not..
maybe my soul is telling me something..
dreams...
people say is just a dream..
but some dreams are meant to be true..
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maybe u wont understand all this..
u da tipu me..
da ignore me..
tinggal kan me..
refused to say ily..
bile gaduh u tknk jumpa me but end up u mit up.. not once..
theres more to it..

u say u menyesal..
n wana change??
but look here..
smlm u ckp lain but today a little thing then u blew it up..

a call with a nice tone is what every guy wants in a rs..
it will just make us happier..
closer..

maybe its time to let u go..
and let u feel how it is life wihout me..
maybe ur not losing anything..
but i do..
after all those pain..
i still patience enough to hug u n kish u ..
n still care bout u..
maybe its time to let u go..
and let ur ownself think..

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2010-01-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

haishhh..
i just dont know how else i can save tis rs..
u hurt me too much already..
at least show me..
u do have a heart after all..
just look back..
u promised me so much..
u say u wana change..
its not about u called or not..
its about how u show me u care and concern bout me..
every time gaduh..
u show less effort..
u know u promised me..
tk kan lao i tk dgr pun u nk marah..
then at skool tadi u kol me n say hello?
wheres helo abg ??
we agreed not to fight bout tis matter again..
u tawu kan i nga sad..
tk salah lao u kol with a nicer tone..
rather then u kol to irritate me..
if only u kol with nicer tone i will speak to uu..
really.. u always say u do love me alot..
but what have u done to justified it??
im tired of all tis..
u nk jaga hati me ?
nk make me the hapiest guy ??
my feelings..
my tears for you..
does it matter to you?
i cried so much..
n yet..
u still hurting me..
can u say u love me if u kip on doing tt to me??
n really..
i felt tt..
u are somehow..
heart less..
u know it..
after all tt hapen to me..
u still nk marah me..
nk maki me..
even say i lokek??
tis 4mths with u .. i spend so much already..
haishh..
im btol2 sedih dgn sikap uu..
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=(

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2010-01-18T22:22:00.000-08:00

...
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b4 u went back tt nite..
u said u will change..
i reali hope u do..
next day..
fights again..
well..
our rs like meaningless rite now..
how many times u say u wana change..
i stil remember ur promised to trust u just tis time..
tt was like a mths ago..
n then about the sheesha thing..
u also promised u will change tt time..
but tt nite..
just b4 u went home..
u promised to make me the hapiest of guy in the world..
you promised..
..

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2010-01-18T05:25:00.000-08:00

cinta sejati...
kadang - kadang manusia selalu leka..
tanpa sedari cinta itu...
berada di depan mata..

tis quote means so much to me..
if u do reali understand the meaning of it..
u will know how to appreciate love more..
appreciate someone who love u from the bottom of his heart..

2010-01-16T20:04:00.000-08:00

i love eu.. idk y.. i just love u so much..
i dont care how much u already lied to me..
i dont care how much u cheated me..
wat matter most is having u rite in front of my eyes..
having u in my arms.. having u with me..
makes my day.. ease my pains...
if only u love me as much as i do..
things wont end up tis way..
i tried.. i did try push all the pain away..
but every time u make the same mistake..
all those pain keep coming back again..
and tell me how can i trust eu if u kip on telling lies..
every word of urs i wonder if theres any truth in it..
just wat do u want me to do now.. acept u back ?
and then i end up bein cheated again.. bcoz if i do acept u..
u wont change.. u wont learn ur lesson..
u will only learn when the person who cares bout u most no longer cared bout u..
no longer loves u.. no longer there wen u need him most..
only then u wil realised..
and only then u will learn to appreciate n treasure the love he gave eu..
bcoz its precious.. and u wont have it twice in ur life..
aprreciate sum1 who loves u..
more then any thing else..
u know who you are..
=( =(

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2010-01-16T19:43:00.001-08:00

why do u irritate me??.. why do u scold me for??
i dont deserved to be shouted at.. i dont deserved to be treated tis way..
where are all ur promises??
every time ur angry u will not respect my feelings & the things i did for you..
u are so egoish.. sellfish..
always think bout ur own feelings..
y must i love some1 like u in the 1st place..
tis 4 mths with u.. every week i end up crying for you..
if u accumulate all my tears i already cried a river for you..
just for you.. all those tears..
didnt they mean it to you??
what is the best thing ever happen to you??
remember.. ?
i know u didnt mean it..
bcoz if u do..
this things wont happen..
im terribly hurt by ur actions & ur attitude..
i got slipless nites.. and where are you??
sleeping at home.. why??
dont u feel any sympathy for me.. ??
after those things u did..
do u still got the heart to treat me tis way???...